That's Life

I thought I'd try to test the water to see if things were still the same. Apparently they still fucking are.

The phrase which CYJ said to me such a long time ago still keeps ringing in my head - 'you never really get over someone, you just try to move on', with the key word of course, being 'try'.

It's like a part of me is still stuck in Nov 09.

You have to fight for what you want. But how do you fight when you don't know what you want?

Well, with 4 weeks left of work and 2 and a half months more to London, it's clear where my priorities are now. Time really flies...UK Student Visa Application has been refused and it has been very frustrating for me, now have to reapply, pay additional application fee, request for CAS number all over again, and with only a few weeks more to get it settled. Stress... I think we really take a lot for granted in Singapore. Uni app for local Unis in comparison are so straightforward and simple, and everyone's having fun at various orientation camps now. haha jealous. Imperial's Sojourn will only begin 27th Aug so that's still a pretty long month to wait, and I can't wait... New friends, new beginnings.

That said, I guess I will miss a lot of Singapore, especially after the surprise birthday bash that a lot of my friends attended.

Work has been pretty much the same, except that i took part in something that have never done before. Singing Competition! Didn't win but it was a fun evening at Tampines i felt. Fellow interns have left, so have been rather lonely at lunch, but there have been new interns who joined. Sadly, i dun think we'll have enough time together to forge close friendships even though they are all very nice people.

Hopefully the next four weeks will be smooth and i can look forward to a long awaited month-long rest before i head to london. And hopefully Visa can be gotten over and done with! grr...

Anyway, an obligatory MV from me. A nice song i heard recently.

Tonight by FM Static, can't find it at Kbox though.

btw phang, don't get too emo pls even though the lyrics might remind you of...

I know it's really bad when I have given up on talking about things because I know I'll end up repeating myself like a broken record player. Which isn't all that strange considering my memories are playing like one.

I think I might want to stay away from Kbox for a while. It might sound absolutely ludicrous but the MVs actually rake up my memories and emotions. There're a couple of those videos which really resonate within me but I shall refrain from naming them.

I've also begun to appreciate the literal meaning of 朝思暮想, especially the latter half of this phrase. I've been more or less dreaming about the same things, with the only variation being in the details. The feeling of hope dissipating into heartbreak is plain fucking AWFUL. On a side note, I'm sure any psychologist would have a field day dissecting my nightly escapades.

This was in my iPhone ever since I first synced the music library. But I only listened to it for the first time two days ago.

I find it really heartrending. Which is strange I know, considering the upbeat melody. But I've always been more of a lyrics than music person.

This song is practically the musical version of what you told me.