That's Life

This stupid blog is becoming my personal grouse-platform. Mervin hasn't posted anything for ages and I'm simply taking up space posting entries chock-full of gloom. Well how brilliant. Fantastic. I wonder if it's the lack of school, the lack of a social life, the lack of a will to study or just me. You know what I think it's just me.

Ok now let me lament about my feelings. I feel like crap. Yes and give the man (Linus) the grand prize for predicting my mood. Now here's question 2: Why am I feeling like crap? Wow, and he's on a roll today; he snaps up the second prize for the correct answer, which happens to be 'I don't know.' Lol ok it's not just Linus who doesn't know but me too.

And I'm not using the guest computer nor my own computer. The keyboard feels kind of funny beacuse I'm not used to it. Lol it's quite amusing that despite the fact that most of my posts are similar people still read this blog. And besides, I still want to point out that we don't post pictures. Hohoho. But whatever. Anyway since this is my personal grouse-expression board I'm going to start writing depressed gibberish.

Well let's start with something uh personal. I wonder what would I be like now if I had gone to Hwa Chong instead of RJ. Well obviously I wouldn't have met my classmates who are pretty decent friends. But there's something about RJ that's different about HC. I think it's the people. I have no idea why people in RJ dont like to go out. Ok maybe it's just my RJ friends. Hey the excuse that you stay across the island doesn't work because we could go somewhere in between. Of course, maybe you guys just don't like going out. Oh well can't blame you for that then. But still it seems that more HC people like to go out than RJ people. I have no statistics to prove my case but well it's just a thesis. Of course, going out would not make me a happy-go-lucky person but I would probably spend less time sitting in front of the computer feeling like crap. The only RJ person from 07s07a whom I'm relatively comfortable with and likes to go out is Daphne. How absolutely brilliant. But still it sucks having only one person whom I can think of who would be free to go out with me and besides, it feels stupid asking the same person over and over again. That about sums up my social life with my school people. To use the word 'sad' would be too kind.

I'm tempted to write nonsense about 5 other people but hey it doesn't make sense to do so because in the end they all sound the same. Now let me contemplate my options for the rest of the day. I could go cycling, which of course would make me feel better but I can't cycle now because it's too hot. I could ask someone to go out but who and where. I could go and study. I could start breaking down but that would be against my image. And yes, my parents have decided that I should not use the computer. Which sucks. Because I can't go online at night when most people are online to talk nonsense. And besides I talk to the same people everytime. Ok not really but essentially the number of people whom I can talk to without feeling sian would be 2. 1 on a bad day.