That's Life

Lim Min has 2 dogs. They are white and are of a breed starting with the letter S. And they are quite nice. Ok so maybe Dasher was some crazy idiot who attempted to scare us all away when we first entered and unfriendly while Donner was docile and heck-care but hey they are kind of cool.

I managed to stop it from barking at me after a while and I guess he's a nice dog. Although he needs to visit a dentist because his teeth are sharp and it's kind of scary when he licks your fingers because you never know if he might close his jaw. But he's quite hyper and well considerably more active than Donner, who just ignores everyone and minds his own business. Anyway Dasher was still kind of scared of me at the end but he still gave me a few licks before I left, so that's good enough. :)

I WANT A DOG. I don't think that my mother is ever going to allow me to get one though because she thinks dogs are dirty because they trample all over the place and attract fleas and tend to get their saliva all over you. Actually she's right dogs are dirty. Haha but whatever. I like dogs. I want a breed that's cool, something like Lim Min's but not the same. I don't like cats though. Ok not really don't like but I just can't be bothered with them.

Ok now CTs are over. And I want to go walk with you lah damn it but you're always saying cannot. ;(

Tmr's last paper. yays! i really hope biology can save my overall CT grades. chem n math were juz horrendous... i thot it was amazing when the whole mph was totally silent after both the chem n math papers though it's most probably coz most pple were shocked...stunned...astonished...

Anyways, it's been a while since i blogged and it's good phang's keeping up with his posts...haha that's why it's good to have a joint blog, so that when u dun really wanna blog, no time to blog, lazy to log on, lazy to switch the computer on, etc etc, there's always the other person haha. then again, considering how my previous joint blog died, coz my other 2 contributors were as lazy as i was, sometimes you just have to get the right partner.

i read phang's post abt nobody knowing what to do on Thursday after the CTS ended, well i think it's quite true for most pple, but for me, sadly, i ll be having econs tuition =S how nice...hmm wat about the op cost of missing the lesson?? :P

Alright, short post tonight and back to my agar plates + mendelian crosses + bacteria plasmids + restriction enzymes + DNA polymerase + ... + n

I want a dog. Of course, I have not taken into account the logistical and more important factors yet but I still want a dog. I'm not sure what type of dog I want. Golden retrievers appear to be quite popular with the people in my neighbourhood, there are about 5 houses with golden retrievers. Then there's a Jack Russel, a chitzu, a poodle and many other different types of dogs. I've even seen those type of huskies that are as big as wolves. Lol. And here's the interesting thing - nobody in my neighbourhood keeps cats.

I was playing with a poodle today. Some white furry small dog that was quite hyper. It started licking my toes when I went near it. Then it started licking my hand when I patted it on its head. That dog sleeps in the master bedroom. I mean, it's kind of unfair when you take into account the fact that its friend gets leashed to the garage. Then again his friend is a big, black, angry dog. Which apparently bites its owners even. And I notice that most of the girls in the neighbourhoods have dogs. Most of them who have dogs are kind of pretty or cute. It's possible that looking after the dog made them kinder and gentler and prettier.

Where do dog owners get dog names from. If I get a dog, I'm going to name him Dog. Or maybe Doggone. I want a weird breed, some mix between poodle, chitzu and golden retriever.

A lot of people seem to be passing away recently. It's kind of weird that people you've seen around or can identify with just pass away. The Raffles tri-athlete was quite unfortunate. And the RI guy who jumped/fell. Ok he's still alive but apparently he's injured. And Chris Benoit died. Apparently he killed his wife and son and committed suicide. It's quite tragic. And sad. And depressing. Knowing that a wrestler whom you've seen on TV wrestle countless of times is never going to be in the ring again. Knowing that you're never going to see the hat-trick of German suplexes followed by the jump from the top-rope. The Rabid Wolverine was quite a legend. And let's not forget Eddie Guerrero who died some time back. He was quite an amusing person and it's too bad he left.

Oh well I guess we just have to look on the bright side of life. Remember the old Nike ad back then - always look on the bright side of life, ta dum ta dum ta dum ta dum.

When the enveloping fog of sadness seems to get thicker and the sparkle of life seems to get dimmer, you either change your batteries in your torchlight or just surrender. Many of the inner demons are within ourselves; identifying them is but the first step in a long and ardous process in which we hope to triumph over the evils.

It's Tuesday. Now of course I know all of you have a calender but that's not the point. There's Maths and Lit left. And then we are temporarily let off the hook. I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do on Thursday. Everyone wants the CTs to end obviously but then again I don't think everyone has a plan on what to do on Thursday.

It's pretty stupid just to go out to some random place or watch some random movie or stuff like that. Lol I quite dislike it when people in big groups head off to some to-be-decided destination to do some to-be-decided thing.

Kind of feel like pooling. I should get a pool table it's going to be cheaper in the long run. But my long range straight shot still sucks. Probably because I just go for power without accuracy. Actually I would rather play football but probably not enough people. Actually I would prefer to go on a date. But then again I gotta find a pretty girl first.

And I should remember not to get any more shoes. No more shoes. Because I can only wear one pair at a time. And shoes don't come cheap. For something which you trample on all day, you would think they wouldn't be the most expensive thing you're wearing.

Transformers. Robots in disguise. Catch the hit TV series every Sunday at 12:30 pm, only on Kids' Central. Conquer the roads with Optimus Prime or rule the skies with Starscream. Transformers, which side will you be on? Autobots or Decepticons?

It's the last week of the holidays already. Rats. Our time is running out. How could it come to this? Oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo. Lol.

Well now nobody is online. I mean none of the people I want to talk to is online. Lol, not that there are that many of them anyway. Great.

First thing today, mock Maths test. Well it certainly made a mockery out of us, that's for sure. 16.5/100 is not a great score. In fact, it's my worst ever. Plus it didn't help that the Stats questions weren't easy. I mean, I practically finished all the tutorials a month ago. Just a month ago only. And yet I could barely do a few questions. Brilliant. I think the whole LT only got 2 people who scored less than 20. Me and Linus. Lol but Jie Liang never tabulate his score but I think he would have gotten more than 20 anyway.

Today I noticed a few things. Lol, let's list them out one by one. There's something different about Cheryl Li's legs. Hahahaha apparently some things are missing there but it's a good thing. Lol. Well Crunch removed the same thing from her head too. It looks out-of-the-ordinary that's for sure but whether it's refreshing or weird is up to you. I think it looks all right but I'm still a bit surprised not to see the weird mess on her head whenever I look at her. Everyone else pretty much looks the same I guess.

It's been 12 days since I took a walk in the dark. Walking for 2 hours at night is a bit weird but nice. Lol it was fun while it lasted anyway. And I liked her smell. Hahahaha.

I can't decide whether to buy Predator or Total 90 Laser. Predator is quite classic and has a myriad of colours - black/red, black/white, white/red, grey/red, blue, red, white and many other colours. Actually wanted to buy Vapour but it's not comfortable and provides little stability. It just looks cool lol but then again nobody really cares about your boots during the game. Total 90 Laser is fine but the colour is not nice. It's yellow and black and just weird. Probably going for the Predator but then again I'm not sure if I'm even going to get new boots.

This stupid blog is becoming my personal grouse-platform. Mervin hasn't posted anything for ages and I'm simply taking up space posting entries chock-full of gloom. Well how brilliant. Fantastic. I wonder if it's the lack of school, the lack of a social life, the lack of a will to study or just me. You know what I think it's just me.

Ok now let me lament about my feelings. I feel like crap. Yes and give the man (Linus) the grand prize for predicting my mood. Now here's question 2: Why am I feeling like crap? Wow, and he's on a roll today; he snaps up the second prize for the correct answer, which happens to be 'I don't know.' Lol ok it's not just Linus who doesn't know but me too.

And I'm not using the guest computer nor my own computer. The keyboard feels kind of funny beacuse I'm not used to it. Lol it's quite amusing that despite the fact that most of my posts are similar people still read this blog. And besides, I still want to point out that we don't post pictures. Hohoho. But whatever. Anyway since this is my personal grouse-expression board I'm going to start writing depressed gibberish.

Well let's start with something uh personal. I wonder what would I be like now if I had gone to Hwa Chong instead of RJ. Well obviously I wouldn't have met my classmates who are pretty decent friends. But there's something about RJ that's different about HC. I think it's the people. I have no idea why people in RJ dont like to go out. Ok maybe it's just my RJ friends. Hey the excuse that you stay across the island doesn't work because we could go somewhere in between. Of course, maybe you guys just don't like going out. Oh well can't blame you for that then. But still it seems that more HC people like to go out than RJ people. I have no statistics to prove my case but well it's just a thesis. Of course, going out would not make me a happy-go-lucky person but I would probably spend less time sitting in front of the computer feeling like crap. The only RJ person from 07s07a whom I'm relatively comfortable with and likes to go out is Daphne. How absolutely brilliant. But still it sucks having only one person whom I can think of who would be free to go out with me and besides, it feels stupid asking the same person over and over again. That about sums up my social life with my school people. To use the word 'sad' would be too kind.

I'm tempted to write nonsense about 5 other people but hey it doesn't make sense to do so because in the end they all sound the same. Now let me contemplate my options for the rest of the day. I could go cycling, which of course would make me feel better but I can't cycle now because it's too hot. I could ask someone to go out but who and where. I could go and study. I could start breaking down but that would be against my image. And yes, my parents have decided that I should not use the computer. Which sucks. Because I can't go online at night when most people are online to talk nonsense. And besides I talk to the same people everytime. Ok not really but essentially the number of people whom I can talk to without feeling sian would be 2. 1 on a bad day.

This sucks. The holidays are zooming by and I haven't really accomplished anything I want to do. It's the 3rd week already. And things are getting worse. Basically I wake up at some ridiculously late time everyday and then spend the rest of the day moping and mulling around the house. Heck, I've even lost interest in going out. Now I know for sure something's wrong.

Bleargh. This is the first time I've typed this word out I think. Anyway whatever I just decided to kope something which I found. I'm going to write 5 things I'm going to say to different people but they are things which I'm probably never going to say. And I'm not supposed to say who are the different people. Lol the actual thing was 10 but I'm lazy to write.

1. Thanks for being a great friend. Even though you're quite an idiot sometimes at least you're someone I can talk to. And hey you give good advice and are attempt to cheer me up when I'm feeling crappy (which is most of the time) so I guess that's pretty good. And I never thought we were going to be close, in fact sometimes I don't know how we got to be close but hey, I'm not complaining.

2. Darn I wonder what would have happened if I had told you. Things would probably have changed but for the better or worse I don't know. But hey there was a big step involved and I didn't want to take the chance.

3. Though I didn't really like you then (most people didn't actually), I realized that you were just doing what you had to do and what was best for us. You probably don't really remember me and the rest of the others but well it helps that a large part of the best few years of my life were spent under your charge and I'm glad that I can look back on everything that happened then, be they good or bad, with fondness.

4. I don't know why you had to do it. Maybe it would have been better for us, me actually, if you had not made the first move. Now I'm not sure where things go from here. You give me hints and clues, not definitive answers and now I'm not sure if I'm just making a fool of myself. Or maybe that's your game plan at least. I'm falling pretty fast and hard and I don't think that's very wise of me but I can't help it.

5. Sometimes I don't know if you're a friend or not. There are times when I just think you're just trying to get company and trying to be closer to me than I allow you to and when I need your help you just refuse beacuse of stupid reasons but they're also other times when you appear nice. I guess I'm not a good friend to you but that's because I'm not sure if you're my good friend or not.

I know what will be good for me. A brain transplant. Ok that probably hasn't been attempted before but heck maybe I should try. But then again where would the brain come from. Ok fine maybe I should like get an operation to remove my brain and re-configure all the wiring inside that's probably short-circuited and tangled up before putting my brain back in place. Maybe an easier way would be to get a concussion that would knock me out cold. Then maybe I can be in a coma for a few days and when I wake up I can be a brand new person. Of course there's aqlso the probability that I would just forget everything or suffer permanent brain damage. Well that's a nice thought.

Crap. Everyone is posting stuff on their blogs that's really deep. Daphne's been posting heck lot of stuff on her blog that I don't understand but it sounds depressing anyway. And I checked out someone's blog last night and well the writing inside wasn't exactly heart-lifting.

Hols are passing by bloody fast. There isn't much time to do things that I want. I want to watch Spongebob Squarepants everyday because it's one of the most retarded yet amusing shows ever. It's so stupid it's funny.

Lol from a third person's point of view the writer of this post sounds suicidal. Haha relax if I'm feeling suicidal I'll drop an sms to everyone I know first. Ok everyone important enough anyway. Damn I need cable. Especially Super Sports, ESPN and Star Sports. Sports probably helps to take your mind of things.

Well it's the second week of the hols now. Gah. You know the hols these days suck. Actually the best part of the holidays is the looking foward to it part. Now guess what it's 12:58 pm on my computer clock, well actually it's not my computer but rather the family computer, the guest room computer or my brother's computer.

Speaking of which I am feeling quite sad and miserable. I have been pondering about the meaning of things lately and trust me, don't. It's quite fruitless to start wondering how things work and how the world functions because there is never one definite answer, and once you start exploring the different possibilities you realize that there are infinite possibilites which can be explored and obviously you aren't going to be able to explore all of them otherwise your cerebral cortex confirm corrode cruelly and confirm cannot cure. Ok pardon me but the alliteration was quite fun, albeit useless.

Speaking of which, I am still sad. Sadness sadly surrounds my surroundings. Ok here we go again but I think I shall stop it it's getting pretty irritating. Anyway I want to accomplish a few things in my penultimate holidays. Yes how time just flies doesn't it? After this year, we aren't going to have holidays anymore.

You know what's the strange thing about my holidays. The main thing I really want to do during holidays is to just spend time with my grandparents. Strange huh but I've been going to their place ever since I was born and a teeny tot. There's no computer there, no like hip shopping complex nearby and no games there. But there's this quaint old feeling there that I just can't seem to find anywhere. I used to love watching the sunset from the 22nd storey. It's just quite beautiful how the surroundings are bathed in this warm golden hue that's not too catching but not too insignificant either. I've got a total of 3 photos on my phone, of which 2 are views from my grandparents' house, one a picture taken in the afternoon and one a picture taken at night.

When I was small, I always wanted to grow up quickly because I thought that kids were pretty much trapped and had no freedom. Now that I've grown up, yes I've grown despite the fact that some of you idiots out there would definitely challenge my intellectual ascension, I can't help wanting to return to the 1990s. Back when I was a small chubby kid who always aced his tests. Now I can't even pass some tests. Sigh. You know, even though spending the time watching old Ch8 re-runs and eating dinner at 5 plus and playing Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on the very first game boy may seem like a sad life to many people I still want to go back. You know when I was small like in primary school I used to think I would definitely make it to like Cambridge or Harvard. Judging from my grades now it seems pretty foolish I guess but hey when you're a small little kid nothing's impossible. Some people are late bloomers I guess but I guess I was an early one. Sigh we learnt some phrase back in sec school about 'xiao shi liao liao, da wei bi jia'. Guess that sort of applies to me.

Hmm I realize that I never really met with any setback when I was a kid. Sure I used to quarrel with my parents here and there but let's face it the only problem I had in primary school was competing with my friend to make our crush, haha yes we both liked the same person, like us. I still remember that the girl told my friend that she liked me because I was smart. Haha ok don't laugh. I was pretty much over the moon then. Then my friend came into the picture. Oh well but it was friendly competition I guess. It all seems so sweet and naive back then haha. Anyway I don't think that girl reads this blog so I guess I'm pretty safe but even if she does I'll bet she still finds it pretty sweet that we were small innocent kids back then who were afraid to talk to one another. Haha. And I still remember how my girl friend passed me and my friend some photos of the girl and how she was so annoyed haha and me and my friend were also pretending to not care but actually we were really thrilled haha because back then it was a big thing to take photos with girls. And I was this shy, quiet little kid back then, which sounds hard to believe given my penchant for uttering gibberish at random intervals now, but I guess we all grow up. And when I was small I always thought that I was not really happy but now when I look back I realize how blessed I was at that time. Not many people here can really say that they had a happy childhood but yah on retrospect I guess my was pretty much perfect.

Rj isn't that bad actually lah even though I get suanned like every single day. Yes I'm sure you culprits know who you are. I'm going to get you all for this one day. Haha ok just kidding lah I guess I like being the joker. Somebody's gotta do the job anyway. Haha but it's pretty sad because the one real regret that I have up to date took place in Rj. Don't want to talk about it. No it's not that I should have gone to HC. Haha but well I think at least someone knows what I'm talking about.

Sigh sometimes I wish I didn't like going out and spending money so much. There are so many things I want. Economics states that we all have unlimited wants but limited resources so yah I guess I can't have everything that I want. Ok let me just name stuff that I want. I want a new pair of football boots that will cost at least 100 bucks, some new T-shirts that will cost like 15 bucks each, a pair of black jeans that I think isn't going to be available for less than 50 dollars and happiness. Haha there's a slight problem with the last want though because it's priceless. And it's not just the price, or the lack of it, but also the problem of where to find it. I guess all of us have different things which make us happy but the problem is that quick fixes don't last forever. I don't really think it's a question of 'zhi zu chang le' but then again maybe I'm just being subjective. Material wants are so transient but I guess that's the only source of happiness, temporary I must add, that I can find for the moment.

This is probably the longest post that I've ever typed but if you look carefully I guess it isn't incoherent but abstract I guess. There's a train of thought somewhere inside. And actually here's a secret: I don't really mean all the insults I throw at you guys haha. Haha yes you are actually girls, not 1/4 or 1/2 or 3/4 girl. Nothing much to say about the guys though because I guess we all have an understanding that most things are meant to be insulted anyway. Not in a bad way but just well, in a normal way.

So long suckers. Haha.