I feel like shit. Argh. I wish the voices in my head would go away. Not all the voices but just the disturbing, irritating and insanity-inducing ones. Fuck. My head feels like it's going to explode. Fuck. This is obviously not going to be coherent and is probably going to look like a fucking mindless rant but then again it really isn't. Or is it?
The msn emoticon that would probably describe how I'm feeling now would be the pic of the guy smashing his head against the wall. Or maybe the guy who smashes his head against the keyboard till it bloody bleeds. Was watching the Ch 8 show 'Ai Shang Te Bie De Ni.' Fuck. Ok that was probably unnecessary but whatever I'm going to be vulgar today.
Ok this was probably not a sight for sore eyes but whatever it's my blog, or rather it's partly my blog and I can post whatever I want on it.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Monday, May 28, 2007
Two pics
Saturday night after the concert! =D lol from left: Suang (standing a step up), Zhao meng, Me, Yiliang, Rachel and obviously my tie pin was crooked =X
Me and My sis, before the concert, was having dinner at this place called Billy Bombers in Bugis haha 1st time there and the food was nice and portions were huge.
Got somemore band pics that i wanted to post but need to get from other band pple 1st so 2 for the time being...
Saturday night after the concert! =D lol from left: Suang (standing a step up), Zhao meng, Me, Yiliang, Rachel and obviously my tie pin was crooked =X
Me and My sis, before the concert, was having dinner at this place called Billy Bombers in Bugis haha 1st time there and the food was nice and portions were huge.
Got somemore band pics that i wanted to post but need to get from other band pple 1st so 2 for the time being...
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Went to Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Secondary yesterday. There was some inter-church activities going on and since Linus' church didn't have enough people for the 19-25 football category, I went to join the team. Played 4, lost 3 and drew 1. Scored 2, conceded 5. Not the best matches I played haha but whatever we had fun. Well sort of but the others didn't really pass to me. Well can't really blame them because after all I was the new guy and obviously you don't really trust the new guy because you don't know how he plays. So never mind whatever haha. Anyway still got other things going on.
Eudora, Linus' friend, introduced me to her sister, Evangelin. Cool names right. Eudora and Evangelin, not Linus. Ok don't get angry Linus. Evangelin is one cute girl haha. She's kind of hyper bubbly. Too bad I couldn't stay for dinner or debrief or whatever otherwise I would definitely have.
Went to catch Pirates with the neighbours at Lido. Show was supposed to start at 9:15. Just for the record I don't really watch movies. But the movie was pretty good. Worth the money. The song is quite nice. The pirate song anyway. Lol and guess what. I'm in love. With Keira Knightley. She's amazing, beautiful, cute, desirable, exothermic, fabulous, great, hot... sexy, sexy and sexy. Mrs Keira Phang. Haha I like it. Even though she doesn't have a great figure and is stick-thin and kind of flat up front she's still amazingly sexy. The scene at the last part of the show was quite heart-stopping. When they got a close-up of her leg. Her leg is impeccably impeccable. Even though they are pretty svelte, they're still gorgeous. Plus she's intelligent and smart. And even when she is shouting scarily and sinisterly she's still sexy. I love Keira Knightley. Haha.
Ok well the show was pretty decent. Despite the fact that we were like in the 3rd row from the screen and it didn't help that it was a big theatre. Plus there was a 30 minute long scene full of storms and waters and winds. Anyway Johnny Depp is quite king. Lol he's some weird, crazy, madcap captain who is pretty much full of nonsense. Lol and his hair is cool. I want hair like his haha ok maybe not. But his hair is still cool lol. Anyway go catch it.
Yo ho ho a pirate's life for me, especially if it's with Keira Knightley.
Eudora, Linus' friend, introduced me to her sister, Evangelin. Cool names right. Eudora and Evangelin, not Linus. Ok don't get angry Linus. Evangelin is one cute girl haha. She's kind of hyper bubbly. Too bad I couldn't stay for dinner or debrief or whatever otherwise I would definitely have.
Went to catch Pirates with the neighbours at Lido. Show was supposed to start at 9:15. Just for the record I don't really watch movies. But the movie was pretty good. Worth the money. The song is quite nice. The pirate song anyway. Lol and guess what. I'm in love. With Keira Knightley. She's amazing, beautiful, cute, desirable, exothermic, fabulous, great, hot... sexy, sexy and sexy. Mrs Keira Phang. Haha I like it. Even though she doesn't have a great figure and is stick-thin and kind of flat up front she's still amazingly sexy. The scene at the last part of the show was quite heart-stopping. When they got a close-up of her leg. Her leg is impeccably impeccable. Even though they are pretty svelte, they're still gorgeous. Plus she's intelligent and smart. And even when she is shouting scarily and sinisterly she's still sexy. I love Keira Knightley. Haha.
Ok well the show was pretty decent. Despite the fact that we were like in the 3rd row from the screen and it didn't help that it was a big theatre. Plus there was a 30 minute long scene full of storms and waters and winds. Anyway Johnny Depp is quite king. Lol he's some weird, crazy, madcap captain who is pretty much full of nonsense. Lol and his hair is cool. I want hair like his haha ok maybe not. But his hair is still cool lol. Anyway go catch it.
Yo ho ho a pirate's life for me, especially if it's with Keira Knightley.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
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the end
Havent been blogging recently coz i have been rather busy. today marked the end of majority of my committments aside from schoolwork.
morning = band investiture. finally handed over the baton to j1s and wish they ll have a successful year ahead.
evening = piano concert. firstly, thanks to all that have come to support me. suang. zhaomeng. rachel. yiliang. etc etc. and my family. all the rehearsals have been worthwhile. and thankfully i did not fumble and crumble on stage.
oh wells...feeling rather emo now coz it finally dawned on me that my music would not play such a significant role in my life anymore. have been playing the piano since 5 and it has since been part of my life. rising up the grades and getting my diploma had been my goals and i am glad to have reached them. this concert was organized by my diploma piano teacher and it was symbolic of a concluding statement. having stopped my formal lessons with him after my diploma exam last Nov, the remaining rehearsals till today were all focused on today's performance. so, lovely fairytale ending.
also, after band investiture, i realized that there is no more learning and playing music as a CCA and i would certainly miss that, having been in CO for 4 yrs and band for 2 yrs. it was certainly enriching.
looking back, i wld like to thank a few pple that have made an impact in my 12 years of discovering music as a passion.
Miao Qiong Lao Shi - piano teacher (grade 1 - 8)
Mr. Lim kee poh - piano teacher (diploma)
Ms Lim Sihui - RICO teacher-ic
Mr Takehiro Oura - RJCSB conductor
ok finish emo-ing, on a aside, i realized i have been neglecting friends (like phang - why r u so emo also??) recently due to my heavy rehearsal schedules and band practs so now's time to catch up with them and at the same time, hopefully i can prepare my CT2 well enough given the 4 wks break, even though probability of finishing all the revision in 4 wks follows a Poisson distribution (rare event of success).
Hols everyone. enjoy and study hard.
Friday, May 25, 2007
Exciting end to the term. Two finals in 2 days. I like.
Football finals at Kallang yesterday. Reached there just in time to see second half of VJ and SA match. Lol quite exciting because some guy scored with a half-volley to make it 2-1 to VJ in the second half and win them the 3rd place. Then it was the RJ MJ match. MJ got like 8 under-18 nationals. Anyway we won 1-0. And the left winger was quite amazing lol he cut in and out like nobody's business. Uh their left winger was quite amazing also making a fool out of our right-back but never mind we still won. Mixed feelings.
Today basketball girls final at Toa Payoh Sports Hall. Even better. Lol the atmosphere quite exciting. RJ against VJ lol. Damn exciting. Because they ran up and down the court and shot quite a lot of baskets. Quite sad we lost 50-53 because it was the only final we lost. But anyway great effort by the bball girls. Lol they were quite amazing. In the way they fought. And other ways haha. Didn't think that the finals would be so nice aha.
Speaking of finals LFC lost the European cup to Milan. 2-1. Not funny, especially when you consider Inzaghi's first goal. Ok lah his second goal was pretty nice the way he dragged the 'keeper out of position before slotting the ball home. LFC scored in the 89th minute though. About time too. But still lost lah. Benitez messed up the formation lah by playing 4-4-1-1. Zenden and Alonso shouldn't have started lah. Should have started with Bellamy and Gonzalez. Bellamy, Gonzalez and Pennant would have ran the Milan defence ragged. Lol but whatever. At least I still saw the best game ever 2 years ago back in Istanbul.
Football finals at Kallang yesterday. Reached there just in time to see second half of VJ and SA match. Lol quite exciting because some guy scored with a half-volley to make it 2-1 to VJ in the second half and win them the 3rd place. Then it was the RJ MJ match. MJ got like 8 under-18 nationals. Anyway we won 1-0. And the left winger was quite amazing lol he cut in and out like nobody's business. Uh their left winger was quite amazing also making a fool out of our right-back but never mind we still won. Mixed feelings.
Today basketball girls final at Toa Payoh Sports Hall. Even better. Lol the atmosphere quite exciting. RJ against VJ lol. Damn exciting. Because they ran up and down the court and shot quite a lot of baskets. Quite sad we lost 50-53 because it was the only final we lost. But anyway great effort by the bball girls. Lol they were quite amazing. In the way they fought. And other ways haha. Didn't think that the finals would be so nice aha.
Speaking of finals LFC lost the European cup to Milan. 2-1. Not funny, especially when you consider Inzaghi's first goal. Ok lah his second goal was pretty nice the way he dragged the 'keeper out of position before slotting the ball home. LFC scored in the 89th minute though. About time too. But still lost lah. Benitez messed up the formation lah by playing 4-4-1-1. Zenden and Alonso shouldn't have started lah. Should have started with Bellamy and Gonzalez. Bellamy, Gonzalez and Pennant would have ran the Milan defence ragged. Lol but whatever. At least I still saw the best game ever 2 years ago back in Istanbul.
Monday, May 21, 2007
It only hurts more when you know what could have been. And I know what could have been. It's really very very painful when I think about it.
It's not really about the victory or the medals. It's much more than that. Of course, victories are icing on the cake but that's not what really makes it beautiful. There's so much more to it than that. Of course, the thing is that with so much significance, it becomes something which can hurt you even more when used against you. And I know how it feels. To me, it feels worse than physical pain. I don't think it can compare to tearing a leg muscle. Haha weird analogy huh but actually it's not.
You know all those compositions we had to write in primary school about our biggest regret or one thing that really upset us. I used to just talk nonsense. If I do that essay again, now I can at least truthfully say I know what I'm talking about.
It's not really about the victory or the medals. It's much more than that. Of course, victories are icing on the cake but that's not what really makes it beautiful. There's so much more to it than that. Of course, the thing is that with so much significance, it becomes something which can hurt you even more when used against you. And I know how it feels. To me, it feels worse than physical pain. I don't think it can compare to tearing a leg muscle. Haha weird analogy huh but actually it's not.
You know all those compositions we had to write in primary school about our biggest regret or one thing that really upset us. I used to just talk nonsense. If I do that essay again, now I can at least truthfully say I know what I'm talking about.
Monday, May 14, 2007
Title
Life doesn't seem to be getting any easier. 'The path to true love is never smooth', so says Puay Miao. Uh just in case you are wondering, I wasn't making any allusions.
Gosh how come nobody appreciates perfection (or near-perfection) anyway. I mean if the girls don't agree it might be because they are jealous of her voluptousness (if there is even such a word), meaning that they aren't happy with the fact that someone else has such a well-sculpted figure with such perfect protrusions. But the boys. What is there not to like about such a gorgeous specimen of female beauty apart from the fact that her face could be a bit nicer. But she's pretty much the best in school already so what more do you want.
Anyway, I realise that for the first time in my life, I'm doubting my Literature capabilities. My scores this year have been hovering around the E and S region and that really stinks. The last time I got a grade I was really proud of was back in the days when Albar used to govern us with her strict rules. What could possibly the reason for my horribel Literature marks aside from the fact that I haven't read the books. Seriously what's this.
And now yohoho I wish there were more people in class who would talk nonsense with me. There aren't enough. I mean there are only so many times I can turn back and sniff the wheatgrass juice.
Gosh how come nobody appreciates perfection (or near-perfection) anyway. I mean if the girls don't agree it might be because they are jealous of her voluptousness (if there is even such a word), meaning that they aren't happy with the fact that someone else has such a well-sculpted figure with such perfect protrusions. But the boys. What is there not to like about such a gorgeous specimen of female beauty apart from the fact that her face could be a bit nicer. But she's pretty much the best in school already so what more do you want.
Anyway, I realise that for the first time in my life, I'm doubting my Literature capabilities. My scores this year have been hovering around the E and S region and that really stinks. The last time I got a grade I was really proud of was back in the days when Albar used to govern us with her strict rules. What could possibly the reason for my horribel Literature marks aside from the fact that I haven't read the books. Seriously what's this.
And now yohoho I wish there were more people in class who would talk nonsense with me. There aren't enough. I mean there are only so many times I can turn back and sniff the wheatgrass juice.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Well it's not that long to the holidays. Which is good news if you're in primary school. Or secondary school. Or even J1 to some extent. But not if you're a j2. Anyway it would be nice anyway if there was the World Cup this year or the Euro Championships or the Olympics or some sort of sport. But there isn't.
You know I realize that people don't agree with me on some things. Or some people. Like about how this certain girl is hot. Lol ok maybe you don't know who I'm talking about but it's all right. Let me add in a descriptive word - voluptuous. There, now I'm pretty sure you know who I'm talking about, especially if you're Jie Liang or Crunch. Lol all the girls think she looks bad. If you people can't appreciate perfection like that, your opticians must be cheating your money. However, if you're Cheryl, then you probably need to get a closer look since you obviously haven't taken a good enough look at her yet despite my repeated attempts to let you observe true beauty. To all you people who think she's not hot: so there. Hahahahahaha.
Anyway watched the rugby match today. Lol not as exciting as I hoped it would be. Basically heck lot of pile-ups and well few points. Gah but it was all right I guess. Anyway RJ won so yay.
Crunch is feeling depressed. As usual. Well I suspect it's due to something. Something within her. Something that's eating her up and casting a gloomy cloud over her. Something that's causing her to feel bouts and rushes of solemn starkness which impede her happiness. I just haven't figured out what that something is lol.
You know I realize that people don't agree with me on some things. Or some people. Like about how this certain girl is hot. Lol ok maybe you don't know who I'm talking about but it's all right. Let me add in a descriptive word - voluptuous. There, now I'm pretty sure you know who I'm talking about, especially if you're Jie Liang or Crunch. Lol all the girls think she looks bad. If you people can't appreciate perfection like that, your opticians must be cheating your money. However, if you're Cheryl, then you probably need to get a closer look since you obviously haven't taken a good enough look at her yet despite my repeated attempts to let you observe true beauty. To all you people who think she's not hot: so there. Hahahahahaha.
Anyway watched the rugby match today. Lol not as exciting as I hoped it would be. Basically heck lot of pile-ups and well few points. Gah but it was all right I guess. Anyway RJ won so yay.
Crunch is feeling depressed. As usual. Well I suspect it's due to something. Something within her. Something that's eating her up and casting a gloomy cloud over her. Something that's causing her to feel bouts and rushes of solemn starkness which impede her happiness. I just haven't figured out what that something is lol.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Frickin' Nothing
Ok I obviously have not blogged in a frickin' long time. That's because there really hasn't been much shiat to blog about unless you count Gan's disparaging comments about my work ethic and personal attitude which I personally don't really consider worthy of any space on my blog but there you have it I just contradicted myself by blogging about it.
Have been going KAP to study recently. Hohoho. Now don't laugh. I've been hitting the books. Literally, sometimes in frustration and by the way I have come to the realisation that cursing and swearing and pleading with your tutorials does not magically produce an answer sheet from la dee da. Huh fun huh. Anyway it's basically fricking hard enough trying to get me to study but guess what recently I've been studying. Well ok probably nothing compared to Guan Koon as of now but hey it's a start. And besides, KAP is a decent place to study. Its most attractive feature is also its most distracting.
I have no fricking idea why many clowns from various schools find it good to go there to study. Now I'm talking about people from MGS, SCGS, Hwa Chong, NYGH, St Margaret's and other schools. Obviously there are a ton of girls there everyday. Yah and well a few cute ones and a few hot ones which can be good because it takes your mind off the books for a while but it's also bad because... uh heck it's not bad.
Anyway studying sessions at KAP haven't exactly been fricking productive. But it's better than nothing.
Joke of the day: What do you get when you buy 1000kg worth of Korean money?
Answer: WONTON! Ahaha ok you can start laughing now. My isn't it just hilarious? Yeah and Cheryl took like a full minute to get it. Wow.
And guess what? This year's UCL final is going to be a gem. Milan vs Liverpool. Aha just like Istanbul when Milan was owning the crap out of Liverpool but Liverpool somehow managed to squirm 3 goals past Dida and defend like mad and win on penalties. Classic stuff. Well let's hope this year's final is good too.
Have been going KAP to study recently. Hohoho. Now don't laugh. I've been hitting the books. Literally, sometimes in frustration and by the way I have come to the realisation that cursing and swearing and pleading with your tutorials does not magically produce an answer sheet from la dee da. Huh fun huh. Anyway it's basically fricking hard enough trying to get me to study but guess what recently I've been studying. Well ok probably nothing compared to Guan Koon as of now but hey it's a start. And besides, KAP is a decent place to study. Its most attractive feature is also its most distracting.
I have no fricking idea why many clowns from various schools find it good to go there to study. Now I'm talking about people from MGS, SCGS, Hwa Chong, NYGH, St Margaret's and other schools. Obviously there are a ton of girls there everyday. Yah and well a few cute ones and a few hot ones which can be good because it takes your mind off the books for a while but it's also bad because... uh heck it's not bad.
Anyway studying sessions at KAP haven't exactly been fricking productive. But it's better than nothing.
Joke of the day: What do you get when you buy 1000kg worth of Korean money?
Answer: WONTON! Ahaha ok you can start laughing now. My isn't it just hilarious? Yeah and Cheryl took like a full minute to get it. Wow.
And guess what? This year's UCL final is going to be a gem. Milan vs Liverpool. Aha just like Istanbul when Milan was owning the crap out of Liverpool but Liverpool somehow managed to squirm 3 goals past Dida and defend like mad and win on penalties. Classic stuff. Well let's hope this year's final is good too.
