That's Life

Heh, here's a warning in advance. This is going to be a crap-free, joke-free and wit-free entry and believe me, it's nothing I like. (or we like for that matter) I'm listening to '安静' by Jay Chou on repeat as I type this, so I guess you can figure out where this is heading.

Oh well, it turns out my sixth sense served me well till today. It's been fairly accurate save for certain occasions and even then, the consequences of failed judgement were minimal. Heh, well I suppose it's partly my fault because I assumed and as Long Kuan likes to say, when you assume you make an ass out of u and me. This time though, the only fool worse for the wear from this encounter is myself.

Clouded by false hopes, I should have known that the heavy thunderstorms this morning and yesterday morning were probably a reflection of what was going to happen but I chose to ignore them. Deluded by the prospect of fairer days, I bumbled along haplessly like a cretin, at least for yesterday. Ignorance is bliss I suppose, and to tell the truth I was fairly happy yesterday, especially in the afternoon and early evening. Yeah, I really felt that the pool games yesterday were the most enjoyable, not because of the games but because of the company. I also have to say that although I sounded grouchy and all that while chatting on the phone last night, the truth was that I was real happy, just that I didn't dare to show it.

Heh, that's why I was so quiet today, especially from halfway through Vadi's makeup lesson onwards. I just want to say sorry to all those people who like waved and smiled to me and whom I ignored, like Daphne, who got a stoned silence in response to her two hellos. It's not that I don't like you guys (or girls) but I was just feeling like pretty moody and didn't feel like talking crap and stuff like that. I know it's pretty useless of me not to be able to concentrate on both the Econs and Maths makeup lessons today but I guess that's just me I guess, not strong enough to cope with such situations.

I really owe Ming Sing a big thank you here because he specially took time off just to like meet me at Khatib for lunch/ tea and to hear me out. Yeah, even though he laced his words with insults as usual, I know that he really meant well underneath all that. Heh, despite all his evil comments, he's still there for me when I need him and I really appreciate that. I hate to admit it but I suppose he's right as usual, that I'm just too childish. Also got to apologize to Mervin for cancelling our study session last minute but I really was in no mood to study.

Hah, I suppose that this is really more than doing something for the sake of doing it or attempting to chalk up another victory over your friend in this area. It's much more than this but sad to say, I don't think I understand it now. Anyway, it's not your fault, so don't blame yourself ok? Since you've made the choice, stick to it and don't regret it. ( =) ) Yeah, well I suppose it's no point forcing you to do something that you don't want, so you might as well decide what's best for everybody in the long run. It hurts now but I'm sure it'll hurt more if you tell me even later. Hah, thanks for the happy memories anyway, even though they were so short. Good luck to you. There's really a lot more I want to say but I can't think of how to express my feelings now, so yeah, I guess that's all I have to say.